other people

Something I've never been able to get my head around, is the simple truth that everyone else is as real as you. Everyone has their own thoughts/desires/idea's and mantras and it genuinely fucks me up how differently people can think from the way I do.

It has always intrigued me how we can experience things, but what I take from it can be entirely different to how someone else perceives it. I like to say I try to see the best in all things, but sometimes its harder to be so positive. However, it's extremely disheartening when people intentionally refuse to see a bigger picture, to see over and above a timely shortcoming or delusion. It's important that your view on the world is uninfluenced by the people you surround yourself with, which is hard of course, soon after being around someone their thoughts/desires/idea's start to infiltrate yours. As humans it is natural for us to sense and match the emotional energy around us. This energy, at best, is an emotionally bleak space created by cynical and confused people operating on little sleep, with a frantic desire to be somewhere, doing something entirely different. 

However, it is not in our human nature to be lazy, greedy and pessimistic. Sadly, our world has become one where tragically, more people are fascinated by materialism and by the lives of other detached narcissists than by their own life experiences. 

Fortunately, for all the people that pick out the worlds flaws and emanate their cynical and defeatist attitudes, there are their counterparts. To live the good life, it is almost a requirement to be able to transform the energy we feel at any moment; to not abandon hope and say that the world is too cruel and stressful, and that the situations we find ourselves in are destined to dominate our lives and feelings. It seems foreign to me, but there are people in the world who practice this. There are the people who are fully aware of the agency they have to activate the very energy and emotion through which they experience life. The people who see the best in all things and these people serve as a blinding reminder to me that there is much to be grateful for in this seemingly dark world. 

I feel like I'm stuck in some sort of limbo, I'm trying not to allow my mind to conform to the reality that the bored, fearful and sullen people of the world are trying to make it. I'm trying not to get sucked into this whirlpool of negativity, to actually be able to choose at any moment, the palette of my emotional sky. I want vitality, freedom and positivity.