It's hard not to think about you.
Not a minute goes by where I don't think about you, and us. And us being apart does get me down sometimes, and of course leaving you is hard. I do struggle a lot, when you're not with me. Truth is, I'm just scared. I'm scared that something will change. Because there is an infinite amount of possible outcomes that could take place when you get on that bus and I walk away. Every single time I see you I'm scared it's the last. I'm scared something will happen to you or to me, and I couldn't be there to say I'm sorry I broke your heart.
You and I just need to know that there is a part of us that is greater than the sum of our parts. A part of us that may not necessarily be living, but is there. And that part of us exists together: they've already entwined and god knows what will happen to us in the future but there will always be a part of me thats still with a part of you.
I know I need to trust this, and I need to trust us. Because for every tomorrow there is still an us.
Us.
There is always Us. And within that set of infinite possible outcomes, I know there's something worth waiting for. You and I are on the edge of the unknown. But there's always something, not matter how meager it may be, there is always something to hold on to.
Just like the first time I saw you. It only took a moment, something felt familiar in your face. Life is just a series of moments and I am so thankful for the moments we've had. Whether if those moments we shared together or apart, they are without the doubt some of the better moments I've had. I am so thankful to know you. And I am so thankful to be yours.
The months I've known you have been incredibly special. But one moment with you is enough. It's enough to validate us, and to know that we are right in every sense.
Even if this is just for now, I will always be thankful to know you. And I will never ever be ashamed to say that I had fallen deeply and hopelessly in love with you.
Bee
